October 8, 2009

The Heartache vs The Delectable life.

The Delectable Life has won.

Su had needed her quiet time. Her space to be away from the world and blogger-sphere.
I hadn't wondered far.
Not far from being found physically at the Delectable outlet... and maintaining her promise to deliver beautiful cakes to happy customers she loves so dearly.
To those who have sent me sweet emails; left messages filled with kind words and uplifting gestures on facebook and my blog; to those who sent me text messages, called and especially those who have took the time to embrace me personally at the store; I forward my sincerest gratitude. Though it does freak me out a little bit when I get given hugs from concerned strangers who I probably am not a stranger to. *laughs* It's just a TEeennyy weenny bit creepy when I can feel that they understand how I feel when I have no clue who they are.
Contrastingly from the way I thought I would feel; I found it incredibly heartwarming. It's kept me going.. it's pushed me forward to this inevitable need for me to move on; carry myself above this and smile again for what it's worth.
My lovely Delectable elves have been cheering me forth and doing silly things to make me smile.. They are ever so darling to their evil boss. I can't thank them enough for their understanding and love. They didn't have to tip toe around me for the first couple of days; but I appreciate how they had attempted to politely let my gloominess pass how I saw fit.

My job has become my life. My blog has become a window to look into all these pretty little things inside of it...but the past week; it has been filled with shades of grey from my inability to create spontaneous rainbows. I guess the care bear in me took a vacation.
I've just got to find that old closet of mine filled with bunny rabbits; joy and fluffy clouds again. I knew I saved some for my rainy days; Su's very good at that. *grin*

A charming lady walked in the other day and announced herself as my biggest fan. She raved about how she's followed my journey right from the start and how she knows everything about the way I've learnt this trade to the day I found true love, moved to America and understands me up to this day that she's standing here listening to me speak to her in person. She said she could hear me speak; my voice.. as she read words I wrote on each post.. and that she could feel the hurt I was going through when I did. I ran toward her and gave her a huge huge hug. I had friends I didn't know I had. She said he had never come to the store... but she had to now.. because she had to see for herself that I was okay. I was so close to a tear; but yes, one rule in the Delectable roof; no tears! no tears of any sort! Only love, laughter and bucket loads of joy! Haha
She's my inspiration to move on.
A couple of days later I met another young girl.. a sweet couple.. a bunch of school children.. a mother of 3...OMG! There are so many of you quiet ones out there! Malaysia, Singapore, Indonesia and beyond! *xoxoxoxoxo*

My family has always been my rock; the place I latch myself onto as I venture into crazy ideas and escapades of risk-full danger! They caught me when I fell... and for that I am so grateful. I guess they could see what I was going through but they knew I had to learn for myself to pick myself up and learn to be happy again however I deem possible.

For those who worry for me and my happiness; need not my dears... my family is with me and my closest friends have got my back. I will regain all these little joyful things that made me the 'girl with a passion'. Just in time. Losing Jo has created this new emotional level of sorrow which I've been so lucky to have never come across in the past... which I suppose was quite difficult to overcome abruptly.My cakes continue to just be as beautiful. I squeeze every last ounce of inspiration within me to keep Delectable alive and even better each day. I take pride in what I do and it really does show how much I've grown as a person. My responsibility and word to others have become more important than my personal emotions or inadequacy. In fact; my cakes continue to give me confidence and creates a focus for me to fight the negativity I battle with everyday. Facing happy couples and beautifully married pairs everyday hurts unimaginably... but truth is; they also give me hope; Hope that one day I can feel just the same.**you can all stop stalking me on facebook now. I'm back all!!! Su's BACK! I promise~
yes.. fine fine.. will answer your emails and requests/comments in the morning kay. only because I love you! Hehe

I forgot the reasons why I shared my life and it's secrets so publicly for a second. ....
And now I remember... it's because it gave me a means to gather rainbows from around the world. Rainbows which create an inspiring and Delectable me; Rainbows which sprout from all these Delectable people I call my friends; Rainbows which are you. :)

XOXO;
Su

33 comments:

Anonymous said...

Hey Su,

I am so so proud of you, I wrote a mail to you and was eagerly waiting for your comeback... love you lots, and loads of hugs. I know your passion is your strength.. So keep making those beautiful cakes and smile. Life is beautiful...

Poorva

qwazymonkey said...

"in my world people eat rainbows and poop butterflies"

Anonymous said...

Hang in there babe and you will be right with time! I have had to deal with a few broken relationships and I can assure you everything will pass. Now may be too early to say anything, so control what you can and for those that you can't, God has other plans for you. Always for the better. Many hugs!!!

feliciapeh said...

Hey Su,

I teared reading through your post... It was a mixture of emotions, mainly glad that you are growing through this... Be strong, be pretty, and be a better YOU! Looking forward to witness and taste your magic when I come back! *Hugs*

Raffika said...

Good to have you back Su :) You're the best!

Anonymous said...

Dear Su,

I know you will be all right, you are such a beautiful and talented girl, You will find your Prince soon.

GS

the Siu Jiat said...

Hi Su,i found out sumthing a couple days back which really broke my heart. i dont exactly know what i shld do. But reading this post of urs gives me hope. i'm glad to c u left all the heartaches behind you & am advancing forward in life with so much courage. i wish i'll be able to do just that too. welcome back!

Marianne said...

You go girl!! You really speak to people quite deeply in your posts...and that's why we love you so much! A big hug to you from Sydney, Australia!

Kiran said...

Welcome back with higher spirits and determination Su. There is a silver lining in every cloud. Chin up my friend :)

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Abigail said...

Looks amazing!! They are so beautiful...I love that they just happen to be edible as well :)
I would love it if you would visit my blog as I did a post this week on cooking and I have a contest for some williams sonoma for someone who can give some good cooking advice. www.dearabigail.net
Love your blog,
Abigail

Sal said...

I have been wondering how you have been going. I'm glad you have loads of support, it is great that you are moving forward putting all your energy into you amazing skills and talents.

You are special enough to bring smiles and happiness to people daily with your craft and blog.

Keep on keeping on sweetness xx

Lingzie said...

HUGS su!! very happy to hear that you're feeling better :) ~hugs~

Hasi said...

darling, sorry i was not around to be there for u.. but just letting u know that my love for u still the same :) i love u loads n loads more...

-with love from kuching-

Cindy Khor said...

yay, i'm so happy for you and for us readers as we always look forward to your blog and hoping to read your newest post.

and i'm happy for you that you are living the ball of your life and is content with the way things are now. i should really learn from you (honestly speaking, you are always an inspiration to me, be it the optimistic outlook of your life or your courage for dealing with obstacle).

and you look really pretty in the picture. i mean, is that you??

angel said...

hey Su, i was just wondering, where did you go for your pastry course last time in Australia? i want to take up culinary arts but i'm not sure where to start or where to go ):

Alma said...

Eh, all the best! I have been following your blog since 2006, since your former housemate, Amrit gave me your blog address. Seriously, you are very talented. Do set up a shop in Singapore. I will definitely buy cakes by the box! haha.

Amelia said...

I know you are a very strong girl and you can get through this! :)

*hugssssssssssss* -->another hugs from a stranger. LOL creepy o not? :P

Anyway, hope to see you in person if I happen to visit Delactables again *which I'm sure I will!! I love your yummy cupcakes ^^* next time. I went to KL last raya holiday but didn't manage to go to The Gardens..

Anonymous said...

You are the best my darling Su !! love you : )


Penny

ViNi said...

Thumbs up.

Time heals all pain, and surely there is a right someone out there for you, and will come to you when you are ready and when the time is right, for the both of you :)

Praying for you :)

Vanessa Goh

Anonymous said...

Move on. That's the way it should be. Have a balanced life.

Piee said...

I love how strong you are during this emotional time. It will be hard, but you will able able to mend your heart in time. Hang in there and the sun will shine. /hugs

Kris said...

hope is what we all must hold dear to! soldier on!

Sophia said...

Glad to get you back here~ You can do it, Su! Keep going ya! AZA AZA Fighting~ *huGGie* - sending warmth sweet hugs from sarawak. ^^

Jennyvi said...

labs yah SU! :D keep the faith!

Diane said...

we're ALL so glad you're back!

we all go through this for a reason (: what reason, we might not know, but everything happens for a reason and when we look back in later life, we'll know that these events only made us stronger.

*hugs*

Sha said...

hey babe, time heals all things :)

I've been to your shop a couple of times with my ex-fiancee. Pains me to go there again but I can't resist your lovely creations.

Hugs. best of luck!

Anonymous said...

Hi there
With so much love around you...you will be just fine. The sky is the limit for you.

LifeBloom said...

Am glad to see you back :D!! Even on the sunniest days some rain must fall/ It helps us appreciate all the more what we have. Without tests and trials we may never know how strong we are...and how the human spirit can overcome and endure almost anything.

Your dedication, passion and zest is awe inspiring. Do your best and leave to God the rest.

Blue skies and everything nice :D

Anonymous said...

Ha..HA..FATTY girl abandon by boyfriendS.

WORLD MOST JOKE,i hear today.

Good LUck for u! FATTY!

theadams said...

Anonymous :Tuesday, October 13, 2009 10:34:00 AM

You are the super joke of the day! Get a life. I dont know that retarded person also read your blog Su.

shelbybaby said...

Su Yin, this is written for you: http://shelbybaby.blogspot.com/2009/10/there-is-no-modern-man-without-modern.html *bisou*

kuchai said...

hey su,

that explains the long silence and hiatus. worry not everyone have their ups and down and there will always be light at the end of the tunnel. painful? yes....but its the best life lesson where no textbook can tell you that. be strong love as I am sure GOD have plans for each and everyone of us...keep up the good work and self reminder to myself to make it a point to visit your store soon!

angel said...

it is sad when u have to make a choice between the things that u love... watever it is... life has to go on... and everyday is a blessing for us to live the life to the fullest... take care my fren..