October 21, 2011

My entire life didn't flash before me..


Had a probable near death experience on the roads last night.

Dark night.. thunderstorm...slippery roads on the highway.. countless zooming cars.. me impatient behind the wheel.. endless phone calls... annoying GPS voice....frustrated and tired boyfriend with his eyes shut in the passenger seat. In a turn of events; my confidence on the road was hit by a stroke of bad luck.

I remember my screeching tyres, frozen steering, and my arm stuck behind the wheel.
..I remember spinning.. and a host cars avoiding us. I had a chain of thoughts in my head "Don't hit us! Don't hit us! Don't flip! Don't fall into the cliff!" I could hear myself scream silently. The car hit the railing once at the back, and in the front.. I turned to look at him beside me.. the car spun and slammed sideways into the door beside me. Shocked just like me, he smiled and held my hand; not certain if it were meant to comfort me or himself, but it made the arguments we were having 30 minutes not relevant anymore.

I hear in movies and stories the most important events in your entire life flashes in your mind at the sight or fear of death. I hadn't any. My mind was too busy flashing imaginative images of all the things I had meant to do and had not achieved. That's a sign huh? I believe it is a sign.
I know now that I should be doing more with my life; fulfilling my responsibilities and listening to my heart more. I've only got one life that I can lead the way I choose.

I spent my next 24 hours thinking...
I havn't figured anything out yet..
Maybe in 48 hours? am I still in shock?

18 comments:

Lilly said...

Oh my Gosh!I'm glad you're okay!

Cindy Khor said...

thank god you are safe. this post totally inspired me to live my life to the fullest. thanks for sharing this with us

ilynna said...

glad you are okay su!

RinezZz said...

Hi Su

Glad to know that you are alright. I had a similar incident recently but I was the pedestrian about to cross with the green man flashing and the truck on the wet road skidded to a stop just less than 5metres in front of me. Right there and then, the only thing I could think of was what will happen to my family? The next thing, besides feeling angry with the driver, was the instant urge to call home and my loved ones. I guess that was what's most important to me. And I have forever been grateful for the opportunity to be with the people I love since then.

I believe the answer is already in your heart. You just have to trust yourself to embrace it.

Remember to be safe at all times, behind the wheels and wherever you may be.

Bobo said...

I am your silent reader for a long time.. I am so shock to see your post today.. Hope you are fine, Su.
Ya.. remember don't drive when times we are having argument or not feeling fit to drive..
You are such a great person who inspire me.. a great character..
Cheer up!

jhtan said...

Glad you are ok... why do we always need to have incidents like this to remind us that we really need to live our life to the fullest....That is if we know what living life too the fullest is all about...

jhtan said...

Glad you are ok....Why do we always need incidents like this to remind us that we need to live our lives to the fullest.....that is if we know what living our lifes to the fullest is all about...

junemoon said...

Grateful that you are still with us, Su. Inspiring that you thought of all that was still ahead of you in this life at a time of true emergency.

I enjoy your blog and often times think of what an energetic creative talented and beautiful young woman you are. Remember to appreciate who you are and all that you do as you go forward creating the rest of your life dreams and goals. junemoon

Clair Removal said...

I am happy you are okay and I agree with you about the signs. Too bad something like this has to happen but you should always listen to your heart!

millet said...

uh-oh...happy to know you're okay. i've been a lurker here for the longest time, and i really, really admire your work. going to SG nect week, and excited to see your store!

Anonymous said...

oh so glad you are ok! Do take care.

Daphne said...

glad that u r okay. i have an exactly same accident. im alone that time but i am so lucky that my car spin 2 times but didnt hit anything (not even road divider). after it stop, tears already on my face, hand shaking and quickly make a call to my bf although was argue with him not long ago.
so do not waster time, do wat u think is worth and appreciate everything everyday :)

theadams said...

Thank God you are ok. Take care, be safe.

Meatloaf said...

Hello Su!
Thanks for sharing your story. Nice to know you are okay.

TheChangingHouse said...

Glad you're well!
Be safe!
Best wishes!

TheChangingHouse said...

Oh, great cake!!!!

Su-Yin -D├ęcorateur said...

Hi everyone! thanks for leaving sweet notes. im sorry it took me so long to respond to everyone. i sincerely think the incident has changed my reckless driving habits haha!
I finally got my car fixed and have it back today! it's been a month! :'( i learnt my lesson well.. LOL

special thanks to those who took the time to share your personal story too.. i guess all of us have that moment of epiphany!
hehe

ALoner'sHeart said...

Hi Su!
Is it possible to order cake from you?