January 1, 2010
Some choose to believe; the beginning of a new year marks a fresh start... with promises of brighter days and bigger dreams. I used to share the same belief; it is this first year of 2010 that I've thought otherwise. Of course it is good to have resolutions and a time for reflection... but my whirlwind of incidents and experiences of 2009 does not come to an end; just because the calendar flips an unfamiliar number or two.
365 days later; I'm still struggling with the same worries and similar daily routines adding up to the day I succeed to overcome them.
There will definitely be days better than the others... and there will also be days where I wish never existed. The significance of celebrating them at the end of each year is just silly. I want to be able to learn to celebrate each day as it comes.
I'm sure it's a closing of a chapter we like to remember as "2009" but what's with the ridiculous haul of traffic, expensive sparkles in the sky and reluctance to work. *ducks for cover*- in anticipation of flying punches from all sides. :P LOL
I'm sorry "Happy New Year-ers"; forgive my negativity; I have a problem wrapping my head around what the commotion is about. Sulky-Su didn't get a celebration this year; just like last year; she's making a cake... but this year; she's making it alone in quiet space with echoing sounds of cheer and fireworks out the window. All she can think of is... "damn; I'm tired...can't it just be morning already!"
I'll be waking up tomorrow morning feeling exactly the way I did this morning; all resolutions or promises I should be making to myself for self betterment isn't going to be done tonight but shall be done impromptu where appropriate.....
i don't need new years day to signify turning points in my life. ... :S
...... oh no...what am i saying?!
Why IN THE WORLD am I being so negative!
We aren't celebrating closure or turning points; we are celebrating opportunities. :(
I take it back.
Happy New Year everyone! HAPPY NEW YEAR because we are WELCOMING a new and better year filled with luck; love and joyous moments ahead!
.... sorry it took me a couple of full paragraphs before i latched my head back on straight.
I blame my brain. It's overworked, exhausted and thinking ridiculous thoughts.. *tsk tsk* shame on me.
Posted by Su-Yin -Décorateur at Friday, January 01, 2010