Many a time; when I was stubborn; he would then say; You can’t always have what you want, you have to do what’s right. I hate how he’s often right too. It’s the larger dreams and happiness, which we pursue, forgetting the sparks of happiness that fill our lives everyday.
I had a conversation with someone who fully understands and accepts balance and equality in each person’s life; and I was taken aback. It isn’t about the many material things we have; it isn’t fame or fortune, it isn’t power or love either… happiness is in acceptance. It shouldn't be about the prada or the chanel? or the make up or dress size.. but unfortunately for us in this society; it is about all that.
In freeing yourself from this natural greed we have to have more, to be better or to exceed others; only then can we truly appreciate the things that make us happy. He listened to my rants and taught me humility through his perspective of happiness.
I’m the type to constantly jump ahead of myself to be the best that I can be; I believe in continuous improvement; of growth and achievement. I wondered; how someone like me was going to find balance and acceptance! Haha. I’m a pretty ordinary person; I don’t stand out in crowds but what I am, is competitive… not for the crave of praise but purely for the thrill of challenge. It’s when it’s for other motives or purposes is when I find myself falling short of driving myself forward.
I’m just a kid; I may not listen well, and I may not be obedient in any way; but I crave the need to free myself to be everything that I naturally am. It’s wise friends who understand and kind beings who stop me in my tracks just as I’m about to do something ridiculously stupid. Then again; what’s stupid to them; may not be to me…and that’s what makes life so interesting. It’s a these choices that I make which have made me everything that I am today; but not for a second have a regretted any of them. They could be bizarre or disrespectful or even wrong in general; but remember that balance? I’ve made good choices too no? No one likes to be judged and no one likes to be labeled a ‘goody-two-shoes’ or a ‘bad-boy’. Either way; I’d take it as an insult. We are all equal and we are all special from our differences.
I’ve had people tell me my cakes are ugly. What do I say to that? I’m not going to say what I do is every person’s cup of tea; neither to I try to disprove their judgement. I wouldn’t doubt how hurtful it is; but I then have to learn to accept that every person is different and that I will not win the heart of every person on this planet.
I woke up this morning finding more happiness than I could handle. I almost had to calm myself from laughing excessively. Despite the worries which hover my life and the unhappiness I could foresee before me; I was going to enjoy myself with these little things right here.. right now.
The world would be much kinder if people can just stop pushing their believes on others. If everyone can stop manipulating ‘society’ for their benefit, power or confidence. It’s not going to make you any happier; you're not going to find what you need; you’ve got to start from within.