... I know I'll never!
From every experience I've had with cake in my hands; I've gained bits of knowledge which makes me better the next time. I understand from speaking to the professionals that perfect execution often comes with decades of experience; and yes.. making a completely unique cake each time makes it even more difficult for me. I challenge myself with each design I sketch; I push boundaries and asses feedback as a point of judgment. There are too many possibilities and risks in the completion of cakes and such... it really is about taking precaution for everything you can foresee and being intelligent and quick enough to fix those which decide to hit you anyhow you may attempt to dodge! Haha most cake decorators can probably relate to what I speak about.It's definitely also about me growing up as a person;
mom and dad often give me the 'That's life / Welcome to the real world" line...
but it really isn't as simple as implementing what I deem necessary in an instant! They are habits I have to teach myself to be accustomed to; it's the way I analyze, react to and judge every instance of my job; which unfortunately has naturally now became everything my life is about! *grr..
I've gotten very frustrated at myself the past weekend; at my incompetence and my inability to handle ungodly amounts of stress. I've finally come to terms with my anger and have turned over a new leaf this week. I didn't kill nee one; I PROmise! *grin* Instead of focusing on the things I should be doing 'right' next; I was unfortunately dwelling on all the stumbles I've made since. Pretty silly and unproductive; I know... I've had my moment of whinging; Su's better now, she's gotten pretty jealous at the improvements of other cake decorators she checks out worldwide from surfing the net lots lately!
Fear not Malaysia! I'm getting better too! Just watch me world!