I've been gazing out the car for awhile now. A fun trail of all-American tunes on the radio have the girls singing and dancing along. Katie's windows are wound down...she drives on swiftly through our local highway; I have the wind in my hair. In usual circumstances, I'd hate it... messy hair in my face and breathing in car fumes isn't exactly my cup of tea, but in this exceptional instance; It couldn't be more perfect.A new friend we made today; Kelly dropped me a simple question at dinner; "How do you do it? How do you just up and go to a different country, a different place?"
I chuckled with my answer; "A suitcase"
With a knot in her brow she rephrases herself; "No, I mean..emotionally..."
I gave it 2 seconds of thought and replied seriously; "I have a heart of stone" *shrug*
Having said that made me a feel a little silly after. I look around me; the beautiful people that I've met. The attachments I've made to lil' favourite restaurants and streets. I couldn't have possibly done that with a heart of stone.
I think of my family and friends in Malaysia everyday. I constantly make references to my Australian buddies down under.
My daily linguistic monstrosities are so very Malaysian, and the Aussie accent hidden in my English never fails to bring giggles to my American friends.
I think I know why I've settled into this foreign land so quickly. I bet in my past; I was a chameleon! *giggle* It's more possible that it is because my heart is made from something way different from merely cold and strong stone. My heart is made from my experiences and memories of the many people I've loved. Their kindness has given me faith in mankind. It has made me learn to care for myself; to be strong for myself, knowing that they will always be there for me. Having held all these memories so dear to me has created this ability for me to feel loved wherever in the world I may be. For that I am grateful.I've begun a new life in America now. It's going to a brief one, but a beautiful one nonetheless.
Orlando has welcomed me with warm friends and kind hearts. I'm ready to love it just the same.
I'm ready to call it my home.