It's time to bloom.
For everything else but me at least.... *sigh* It's been periods of gloom for me instead. I woke up this morning to a bright blue sky, pretty petals and refreshing soft morning breeze. It should have made the start of my day a perfect one.... but I was too engrossed with life's responsibilities and obligations to try to force a smile on my face. The thought was disturbing, considering how I'm possibly the most postitive person I know. Today...the glass is half empty!.. The past week has not been kind to me...or should I say; I have not been kind to myself the past week. I've loaded upon myself unnecessary amounts of stress and made a bad schedule of daily tasks and activities without taking into account the limitations of my capability to multitask. I've over-estimated myself, and I guess it's time to pull-back......breathe...sit..waste time...and type an entry on my blog; not because I "HAVE-to-put-up-a-food-related-blog-entry-daily"....but just because it makes me happy. Cooking everyday has always been something fun, till recently; when I began to feel I didn't have time to put enough effort into the daily meals I made. I've been too occupied with work from uni, catering jobs and the Malaysia Fest stall on Sunday that I've forgotten to put "REST/PLAY" as an activity in my schedule-*Which I've ripped up a couple minutes ago.
I kept thinking about my personal issue with needing everything "perfect" and I guess it's what drives me insanely "busy". I could always bludge and take a couple less important details for granted....but I always seem to get the priorities wrong. *sigh* All the unnecessary stress I've been going through has been wearing me out; and has led to many mishaps and upsetting events. I guess I shouldn't keep going on about how 'crap' my entire day has been and admire the pretty things around me instead. Here were a couple of photographs I took on the way to Uni this morning as I thought about how beautiful but unappreciated the beginning of spring can be; and how I sometimes feel that way too.
The last week has been testing my true "Passion" for cooking and baking; but unfortunately, Uni work had to come first...and this 'passion' of mine has been the source of my many restless nights and big, round eye-bags. Cooking is still my favourite thing in the world....but it just isn't as much fun anymore when you HAVE to do it even when you know you CANT!
....So please don't ask me
"Hey Su YiN!.....Why didn't you cook??WHere's the recipe for today??"...I'll have to just tell you; I'm sorry...today;...there is none.. *smile*